at the time of writing this,i think im under a lot of pressure,i juz can't take it any longer..
juz so u know dat currently ive been close to sumone so dear to my heart,we know each other for a longgg time but it happens dat we've been going out and texting each other within this two months.things are so right until 15 mins ago when i found out dat she is actually attached to sumone,,n again my heart is shattered to pieces.i feel like the world has actually collapsed around me~~yess,we have not actually declared the relationship but it's like "teman tapi mesra" kinda relationship,n i am sooooo determined to get my posting as soon as possible so dat i can actually propose to her in a right manner.
Reading her bday wish towards her "BF" has actually paralyzed me,,making me numb n i feel like such a loser for not finding this out juz after we got close.silly me i guess..i juz dont feel like doing anything rite now,all my notes have been put aside n i am so tensed dat i actually broke one of my phone silently outside my house.dat phone simply erases all my memories with her,all our pics together,all our good morning wish,our stupid conversation about nama anak la.silly me.ive been fooled again,i guess.it's my second time being fooled around by a person dat i truly like.the first one was with the nurse,n now she's happily married with one son,m happy for her tho.seriously,i need to get over n done with with this spp bullshit and straight away go for vacation.next month im going off to ho chi minh city,hopefully i can be okay after dat..
i juz feel like singing "cant believe that im a fool again" by westlife at this moment,,watever happens tomorrow,let it be.come wat may.i feel cheated and useless.betol kata org tua2,better je soh parents carikan if diz is d case la.suma yg aku suka...suma nya penipu or mybe aku yg bodoh mudah ditipu.babi!!
chill la wehhh.. bunga bkn skuntum.. u know what? u deserve better la.. so stop thinking about her.. that's all i can say..
ReplyDelete*dowh.. dh tukar layout.. tp btraburr.. hahah.. image size pon x adjust.. lol
sabar broo..it's really hard accepting the truth even though the hints/feedback we got from her were very convincing..
ReplyDeleteExperiences tu penting, tu akan buat ko lebih tabah, hensem dan bergaya..hehe
oi belajaq utk interview, jgn dok pikiq pasai pompuan..^__^
sapik:mmg bkn sekuntum pik tapi aku jenis yg once dah suka,aku susah nk lupa.huhu..tapi xpala,its juz d right time aku tau kan sal nh,lagi terok kalo aku tau lmbt lg,meroyan kot.haha
ReplyDeletemenn:sgt2 betol apa yg ko kata,kdg2 kita tgk mcm green light n kdg2 dia yg lebih2 dok layan,tapi next thing i know,dia dah berpunya n bila aku tanya b4 tok,"i xde attach ngn sapo2 la".dpt ko byg sik cmni aku sakit aty smlm?huhu..nway,thanx for d advice bro.hehe